Purity After Sexual Abuse Part 4: Letting God Let It Go

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“You have to ” Let Go and Let God”.  I have heard this statement many times especially when I opened up about being molested.  People would hush me with this quote. If people aren’t careful they can do damage with those 5 words. First hand those words impacted me. People think this quote is biblical but it isn’t.   You can’t let go until You Let God. So many of us have “Let Go” by pretending nothing has ever happened.  We have “Let God” by saying what we think God wants to hear from us.  For many years I masked my emotions by pushing down the rage, bitterness,  and lack of forgiveness.  I became a proud workaholic with an agenda to overextend myself to avoid the real work needed on the inside. The impression I had of myself was totally incorrect. I saw myself as a whole healed person; boy what a lie.   A walking wound would best describe me.  Instead of healing the wounds I would place temporary bandaids expecting it to remain permanently. When someone got too close to the wound it was a like I was the hurt little girl all over again.

In my early twenties, I developed a  real relationship and learned about God’s restoration; Im still learning. During this time my only prayer was for God to heal the wounds. I wanted a healthy mind and a clean heart.  God’s greatest desire is for us to be healed.  Psalm 147:2 make this very clear. All the pain I swept under the rug God began to clean. God is not a surface cleaner but a deeply detailed cleanser.  God leaves nothing undone. Once I opened up to God I saw how he begin healing me. Sitting at his feet and crying happened a lot. One of the most important parts of the healing journey is being completely open and honest with how you feel.  The role we play in healing is to trust the lord and to put our faith into action.

A great example of being open is the women with the issue of blood. When she came to God she didn’t say, Jesus, I have a ” Body” issue she made it clear she had an issue of ” Blood” and during those days this was looked at as shameful and embarrassing. Being molested comes with many embarrassing and shameful experiences.  We can trust God with every detail.  I was so private when I would pray to God I would just say God please heal me from the abuse. When God told me to get real my prayers became Jesus: I hate my adopted father he violated me. He rejected me he wounded me lord please heal my brokenness. The more real I became with God my heart shifted and so did my prayers. My wounds are building new layers of skin. Healing is a process. My prayers different now as I dont hate my adopted father which I will talk more about in another blog post. One more thing that’s important to know is healing requires a mind shift.  We have to let go of all things that are against our healing. We can’t ask for something new and want to keep the old. God doesn’t work like that.

 

Ezkeil 36:25-30 is my favorite scripture I stand for healing from sexual abuse. You can use it for anything. 

25 I will sprinkle(A) clean water on you, and you will be clean; I will cleanse(B) you from all your impurities(C) and from all your idols.(D) 26 I will give you a new heart(E) and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone(F) and give you a heart of flesh.(G) 27 And I will put my Spirit(H) in you and move you to follow my decrees(I) and be careful to keep my laws.(J) 28 Then you will live in the land I gave your ancestors; you will be my people,(K) and I will be your God.(L)

Love You Treasures

Did you miss any of the post from the series Purity After Sexual Abuse check them out below?  Thank you for joining me along this journey.  Honestly, friends, this wasn’t easy and I didn’t think I would be able to finish but I thought of you.

Part 1: New Series: Purity After Sexual Abuse

Part2: Purity After Sexual Abuse Series: Part 2 Maintaining Your Purity

Part 3: Purity After Sexual Abuse: Part 3 (Exposing Lies & Telling The Truth )

If you haven’t accepted Jesus in your heart and you would like to here’s a prayer you can pray and get connected to a local church. Lord Jesus, for too long I’ve kept you out of my life.

I know that I am a sinner and that I cannot save myself. No longer will I close the door when I hear you knocking. By faith, I gratefully receive your gift of salvation. I am ready to trust you as my Lord and Savior. Thank you, Lord Jesus, for coming to earth. I believe you are the Son of God who died on the cross for my sins and rose from the dead on the third day. Thank you for bearing my sins and giving me the gift of eternal life. I believe your words are true. Come into my heart, Lord Jesus, and be my Savior. Amen. This prayer is from Dr.Ray Pritchard found 

 

 

 

 

 

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