As a young girl, I had a deep desire for God. After a while, I grew up thinking God forgot me. My first oldest sister would take me to church. My expectations of meeting with God were always high. Because I wrote letters to God daily. During the service my little eyes watched people get filled with the Holy Ghost crying, jumping, rolling on the ground waiting for my turn. But my turn never came. Each Sunday my faith would chip away. And at some point, I stop believing in God. I became numb to what was going on around me. Deaf to the preacher screaming and sweating profusely. Hidden layers of atheism begin to build within me.
When we think of Atheism we tend to think of the stereotypical images; A dark demonic person in all black with an ” I Hate Jesus T-shirt”. But that’s not the case . Atheist look like you and me! Normal. The only difference between a Christian and Atheist is what we believe in our hearts. The Atheist says there is no God. Christians say God is the very reason for everything. Can a Christian have hidden layers of atheism YES! So many of us and I will not exclude myself have walked around with the appearance of a Christian but question God’s existence without realizing it. When we dont trust God in any area whether big or small we question his existence. When God gives us specific details and we make a plan B in case the plan he told us doesn’t work we are questioning Gods existence.
We are saying there is no God. It sounds harsh but its true. Psalm 53:1 The fool hath said in his heart, there is no God… As a little girl when I prayed every night for the abuse to stop I begin to questions God’s existence in the area of him being my refuge, my strength. As each year passes I realize if you dont deal with Childhood Trauma it invites its self into your Adulthood. The battle of feeling forgotten and forsaken by God I never dealt with. Could I tell God I felt he wasn’t there when I needed him the most? If we are honest with God he is able to heal us and help us. When we keep things a secret we give the enemy room to build hidden layers of atheism.
We are not alone with challenges like this. There are many stories in the bible where people questioned God. Like Abraham and Sarah were already old and well along in years. Sarah had passed the age of childbearing. 12So she laughed to herself, saying, “After I am worn out and my master is old, will I now have this pleasure?” 13And the LORD asked Abraham, “Why did Sarah laugh and say, ‘Can I really bear a child when I am old?’…Guys Sarah laughed and if we are really here she doubted Gods existence area of God is a miracle worker. The questions I would like to ask you is what are you laughing at. What promises did God make you? What areas are you questioning God’s existence?
Three helpful tips to overcome hidden layers of atheism is:
- Acknowledge you have hidden areas where you question God and Repent
- Ask God to help you seek him daily and to search your heart
- Stay connected with God dont forsake God
- Write down the promises of God
- Remember the lord promises write them down. Even when things get shaky trust, God
Thanks for reading treasures I love you but God loves you more. Stay Awesome.